NO
There’s something I would never do,
and that’s pretend it didn’t happen.
When the whole world went ape-shit
and now it’s all good,
when your best friends called you dumb
(though maybe not to your face)
and now they feel you’re WELCOME again,
no longer a threat:
water under the bridge
like you created trouble
and all is forgiven.
But here's the thing...
Nothing’s forgiven.
Nothing’s forgotten either.
I will hear those words
and witness their knowing smiles
in my inward eye,
those so-called friends' self-congratulatory smiles that said,
‘We’re the same, doing right.’
I won’t forget
the fear
they all embraced,
the lie they sucked upon
like a pacifier to a kid,
shunning me,
growing.
I can’t.
No.
* * *
Honesty stands its ground. Hello Blue.
ReplyDeleteHello Jules. I visited your blog a couple of days ago and tried to post a comment but it kept asking for the address of my blog. I'll try again, okay?
DeleteEveryone has reasons for the things they do...even those that hold grudges. I know I can hold a grudge at times as well.
ReplyDeleteI hear ya, Mary. How are you today?
DeleteI'm definitely a grudge holder. Forgive and forget, more like resent and remember 👿
DeleteHello Adam. Yes, sometimes it's hard not to hold a grudge. A person can only take so much.
DeleteDoing good, Blue. I hope you are well too.
DeleteWell, like the old saying goes burn me once shame on you burn me twice shame on me. Who said that originally?
ReplyDeleteHow are you blue? I miss you, you know its true…
There you are. Alex and I'd been wondering where you were. Blue is doing fine. Not great but fine.
DeleteNo idea who said that first, but I know I try not to be fooled twice.
How have you been doing?
I’m not a person who holds grudges. Try and find some happiness Blue!
DeleteHere is a question for you, oh Randy, oh Mandy: how are ostriches breathing when they stick their fugly head into the sand? Can they breath through bum?
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely.People who are full of shit need a 'back... up.... plan. See what I did there?
DeleteI have forgiven every person who has done me wrong, no matter how that may have looked at the time. I stay as far away from them as I can and I enjoy my life, never letting them back in, but I have forgiven them. I just know better than to believe in them again.
ReplyDeleteThat's smart thinking, Rosey. Good to hear from you again.
DeleteThat's quite a burden on one person, isn't it? Forgiveness. I'm a forgive-and-forget kinda girl because I literally forget what hurt me in the first place. But there are actions, repetitive behaviour from some that's abrasive to my vibe. Best thing is to offer your best wishes and part ways. But when it's family, it's different. They say a sorry on their deathbed, and leave you with that burden to sort for the rest of your life.
ReplyDeleteWell said, Jaya J.
DeleteSometimes the world feels like a very lonely place. But then I come back to blogging and it doesn't seem like such a sad place after all. I hope you're well
ReplyDeleteI'm doing okay. Thank you for asking. Yes, sometimes the world feels like a lonely place.
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